Anxious anxious

Hello. ♥



I hope everyone's been doing well! I have been pretty distracted lately because there is this commission work, Singapore trip plan (which I haven't planned anything at ALL about), and I have also been going out with my friends a lot lately. It's nice.

I don't draw complete pieces lately, just a lot, a LOT of unfinished sketches of Kain and Cecil. I miss drawing, but lately I'm quite uninspired, maybe because I have a lot of things going on in my head...

Anyway, I still can't believe I'm going to see L'Arc~en~Ciel live this weekend, and then next weekend too. It all feels so fast and surreal and I'm not mentally prepared yet... on one hand, I am sure I will be just fine, but on the other hand I'm pretty sure I will break down and cry anytime now! I love them so much, their music saved my life, and they mean so much to me. I can't wait to see them because it's my dream, but I also can't begin to even think about the end of the concert.

I'm so scared and just typing this gives me goosies and tears already.

God I don't know... I just really, really love them, and seeing them is really a dream come true for me. Now it's going to happen real soon, and I'm at loss of what dream should I pursue next. I really don't know. Too much feelings, this is so overwhelming for me ;-; I AM NOT READY FOR THIS AHH HELP ME